What will you choose?
“Choose you this day whom ye will serve.” (Jos 24:15)
Sometimes I wonder how would the human race be like if we haven’t been given the power of choice. Even more so, where and how would I be (like) if I haven’t been given the power to choose. It is thought-provoking to consider that without free will, I would be a mere robot following the orders of anything or anyone ruling over my head. That is for sure. But the question is—would I be happier like that? Or even, would it be any easier?
Historical heroine Amelia Earhart once said—“you can act to change and control your life.” And to be honest, I agree with her. But coming from a past full of dark things (abuse, depression, suicidal thoughts, etc.) which now I know were utterly obliterating my potential and well being; hence, having lived most of my life under the numbing effect of things like addictions that felt SO INCREDIBLY good and comfy, the one thing that becomes heavier and heavier with the time is having to “choose” not to go back down that road.
Living in a mental war-zone where you need to willingly choose not to watch this, not to listen to that, not to speak about this, not to act like that anymore while you STILL want them so bad (due to their capability of giving you that utopic sensation where “everything’s painless and possible”) is indeed unbelievably exhausting. And the worst thing is that people are rarely aware of the battles you face within behind your biggest smile.
It’s in the midst of the confinement of my solitude where the struggle intensifies. But it’s also there where darkness comes face to face with the light. It’s there where you’re reminded of surgical truths like this: “Be still and know that I am God. The original Hebrew root of ‘Be still’ doesn’t mean ‘be quiet’; it means ‘let go’. That’s very different, don’t you think? Let go and know that I am God!.” [by She Raises].
If you know that He is who He is, what will you choose? Will you then let go and let God?
#Choices #MentalHealthAwareness #Faith
Sometimes I wonder how would the human race be like if we haven’t been given the power of choice. Even more so, where and how would I be (like) if I haven’t been given the power to choose. It is thought-provoking to consider that without free will, I would be a mere robot following the orders of anything or anyone ruling over my head. That is for sure. But the question is—would I be happier like that? Or even, would it be any easier?
Historical heroine Amelia Earhart once said—“you can act to change and control your life.” And to be honest, I agree with her. But coming from a past full of dark things (abuse, depression, suicidal thoughts, etc.) which now I know were utterly obliterating my potential and well being; hence, having lived most of my life under the numbing effect of things like addictions that felt SO INCREDIBLY good and comfy, the one thing that becomes heavier and heavier with the time is having to “choose” not to go back down that road.
Living in a mental war-zone where you need to willingly choose not to watch this, not to listen to that, not to speak about this, not to act like that anymore while you STILL want them so bad (due to their capability of giving you that utopic sensation where “everything’s painless and possible”) is indeed unbelievably exhausting. And the worst thing is that people are rarely aware of the battles you face within behind your biggest smile.
It’s in the midst of the confinement of my solitude where the struggle intensifies. But it’s also there where darkness comes face to face with the light. It’s there where you’re reminded of surgical truths like this: “Be still and know that I am God. The original Hebrew root of ‘Be still’ doesn’t mean ‘be quiet’; it means ‘let go’. That’s very different, don’t you think? Let go and know that I am God!.” [by She Raises].
If you know that He is who He is, what will you choose? Will you then let go and let God?
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#Choices #MentalHealthAwareness #Faith
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